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CharlysAirandil
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Age: 39 18+ Age Verified Age Verified
United States - NY
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"I\'ve never claimed to be more than I am... The rest is for you to determine."

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...She was trapped in a fire of her own making. In a house that didn't exist. And she was going to die there....
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I still believe in Wonderland, twisted dreams and nightmare fairytales... this is the fate of man, and not even the gods can save you from the terrors of the night. Better then to be victim of bloodlust than slave to vanity... there will always be glinting knives to cut you to the bone... ...and I still dream up six impossible things by breakfast...


TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey (Taken 6/5/07)
Name:Jamie
Birthday:12/8/84
Birthplace:Silent Hill ;)
Current Location:Refer to previous question
Eye Color:Blue
Hair Color:Currently? The color rainbow due to a botched dye job (but normally dark brown and will be purple shortly, or black if the purple doesn't take)
Height:5'2"ish
Right Handed or Left Handed:Ambidextrous in everything not involving a writing implement or scissors (in those things I'm right handed)
Your Heritage:British, Irish, French and Native American
The Shoes You Wore Today:I avoid shoes whenever possible
Your Weakness:I'm a f***in doormat. Oh, and I can't resist free food ^-^
Your Fears:Being alone
Your Perfect Pizza:Pesto with fresh tomato
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:To find that which has been thus far elusive in my life (namely, happiness)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:Meow =^._.^=
Thoughts First Waking Up:Brains...oops, I mean, caffeine...
Your Best Physical Feature:I suppose my eyes, but I hate all my features so you're really asking the wrong person
Your Bedtime:Sleep? What's that?
Your Most Missed Memory:My lost childhood
Pepsi or Coke:Dr. Pepper
MacDonalds or Burger King:Burger King
Single or Group Dates:Depends on the situation...usually groups I suppose since I like hanging out with my friends, but romantic single dates are also nice
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Arizona Pomegranate Green Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:Dark Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:Irish cream if it's cappuccino, iced French vanilla with lots of milk and sugar if it's coffee
Do you Smoke:Um...not cigarettes ;)
Do you Swear:Every damn day
Do you Sing:Yes, but preferably when no one is around to hear me
Do you Shower Daily:Usually
Have you Been in Love:More than once, with a broken heart each time
Do you want to go to College:Been there, done that, and - surprise! - got a t-shirt...and a B.A. from Mansfield University
Do you want to get Married:Yes
Do you belive in yourself:Um...I believe no matter what I'll always get by, how's that?
Do you get Motion Sickness:Unfortunately
Do you think you are Attractive:*rolls eyes* What kind of silly question is that, of course I don't
Are you a Health Freak:No, but that doesn't mean I don't enjoy healthy food just as much as I enjoy the junk (and in fact I usually prefer healthy stuff anyway)
Do you get along with your Parents:Occasionally, depending on which one you're referring to as I've got four
Do you like Thunderstorms:LOVE them
Do you play an Instrument:No, but I'm sort of teaching myself the tin whistle and there are several others that I would like to learn
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:Again, not cigarettes ;)
In the past month have you been on Drugs:Well, given that I've smoked in the past month but not cigarettes...well, you figure it out
In the past month have you gone on a Date:Psssh, yeah, like anyone would want to date me
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:Yes, and I'm addicted to Hot Topic! :D
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:Mmmm....sushi....*drool*
In the past month have you been on Stage:Sadly I haven't been on stage in a very long time...and boy do I miss it :(
In the past month have you been Dumped:No, I've been unhappily single since my last relationship met its demise
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:That's a big HELL NO
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:No
Ever been Drunk:Pretty sure I've gotten alcohol poisoning before actually
Ever been called a Tease:No
Ever been Beaten up:Yes
Ever Shoplifted:Not intentionally - if you really want the story on that one, feel free to ask
How do you want to Die:Who said I wanted to? Or could...
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:Does anybody ever really have an answer to this question?
What country would you most like to Visit:Oh for the love of Benji I can only pick one? Ireland, Japan and Egypt are all up there
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Bright green or any shade of blue
Favourite Hair Color:Black
Short or Long Hair:Hmm....it really depends on the person, but since my most recent ex had long hair I'm kind of anti-long hair at the moment. Plus it depends on what you define as long and short.
Height:At least 5" taller than me, but not taller than my dad (who is 6'4" - I seriously got gypped so far as height genes are concerned)
Weight:Average - I don't want morbidly obese nor a muscle bound god, but someone who can at least pick me up easily would be nice
Best Clothing Style:I have a thing for button down shirts and guys who look semi-sharp. Or guys who cos-play...yowsa ;)
Number of Drugs I have taken:Ever? And are we only counting the strictly illegal here or everything? Because technically birth control is a drug. So let's go with the strictly illegal for me, which would be 4 (1 if you're only counting the strictly illegal)
Number of CDs I own:Not many, but I do own every Flogging Molly cd
Number of Piercings:Ever? Seven. That I can still put jewelry in? Four.
Number of Tattoos:Is really seven but looks like six. And sadly one will probably never be finished...
Number of things in my Past I Regret:Too many to count babe. Far too many to count...
Favorite Phrase:"But remember, never is just reven backward" ~ House ^-^

The heart may freeze, or it may burn; but pain will ease, if I can learn. There is no future, there is no past; I live this moment as my last. There's only us; there's only this. Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. No other road; no other way; no day but today.




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"No matter how vivid your dreams, they do not begin to approach the reality in depravity, intensity, or tenure." ~Viconia

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Your Brain's Pattern
You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.


Your clan is a dysfunctional one. That is because you are a Malkavian. Something is poisonous about this clan's blood that drives all those embraced to madness. However, in this madness, you tend to have great insight. Unfortunately, people just take it as senseless ramblings. In every family there is an insane one. You're it.

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?


You scored as Angel, Angel: Angels are the guardians of all things, from the smallest ant to the tallest tree. They give inspiration, love, hope, and positive emotion. They live among humans without being seen. They are the good in all things, and if you feel alone, don't fear. They are always watching. Often times they merely stand by, whispering into the ears of those who feel lost. They would love nothing more then to reveal themselves, but in today's society, this would bring havoc and many unneeded questions. Give thanks to all things beautiful, for you are an Angel.

Angel

92%

Faerie

75%

Dragon

75%

WereWolf

67%

Mermaid

67%

Demon

0%





What Do You Need in Your Life?

You need understanding.
In your life there have been many people that could never seem to comprehend your personality. Now you have either become an outcast because of their narrow minds or you have adjusted yourself to them, never letting them see who you are deep inside. You now think that no one will ever understand you and you hate that fact. Though you are scared of what the effects might be if you would decide to let someone in so you keep a safe distance that you both curse and bless.



What Type of Person Are You?

The wanderer - The lost


The one who never has a place to belong. The outcast amongst people, Wanderers find life to be rather lonely. There is an empty feeling inside of them that they can't seem to get rid of. However, not all is pain for them. Despite what others might think, they are very much capable of being happy and sad. Due to the fact that Wanderers always feel misplaced -to some extent- some adjust to how others are, just to have a place to be. The others in this category tend to shy away from people, preferring their own company, certain that they don't fit in. Both categories however, do keep most of their personal thoughts inside.
Wanderers tend to wish for a place where they are meant to be, resulting in a lot of daydreaming. Personality wise they are, in fact, dreamers. It doesn't mean they believe that they wish for will come true. Their inner world is simply better than this one. Most Wanderers try to find their special place, no matter if they are a passive-aggressive or a fearless individual. It is something they are drawn to do by nature.
Wanderers are also found to be hard to truly satisfy. Nothing will ever be the way they would have preferred/wanted it to be, and they tend to be disappointed a lot. It is not that they are perfectionists, they simply want for something to feel "right". Because of this, they often second-guess things/actions/relationships. Low self-esteem is a high possibility, as they often doubt themselves.
As their hole in their heart is constantly there, they may be prone for depression, as rarely anything is giving them true satisfaction. One day they may find their personal heaven, but it is important they are not too caught up in fantasies, or else they might pass by it blindly, missing it forever.
Quote:
"Illusion is the first of all pleasures." -Oscar Wilde





Your wise quote

Your wise quote is: "Be kind to unkind people, they probably need it the most" by Ashleigh Brilliant.
You try to look beyond apperance, try to give people second chances and are probably very kind. Understanding is your biggest personality trait, and thoose you can see through should be grateful. If they aren't already. You detest narrow minded people, because they can't see what's really there. Facades is not your thing and you strive to always be who you really are.



How is your soul?

Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you don't know them. If you see a person trip you worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones first and you're very mature. When someones sick you're nurturing and always try to help family and friends when failure strikes them. You can be called the motherly one, if you are in a group of people, which doesn't have to be bad. Love is something that's already in you and you have a lot to give whether you believe it or not. Your friends probably love you very much and come to when they need help since you're reliable. People can feel secure with you and generally like you.



What is your element?

Your element is Ice. This element may seem a little odd, but this is a side-effect from when the element of Water gets too hurt. Once you were a content soul, and happy with life. But then something happened. Not necessarily on one day, it probably happened gradually over time. People hurt you in ways you do not want to remember and now you isolate yourself from them. You became even more reserved from the world. You have turned into an outsider and probably dress more in black than you used to. Your depression is eating you up and tearing you apart and the worst part is that no one is willing to help, or so it seems. In school you are often by yourself or one single friend and you rarely seem to be truly happy anymore. Your sad, distant eyes and constant frown seems glued to your face and you need a saviour from this world. You may turn to music for understanding and sing/scream along in the lyrics to get rid of some pain. You are not very open about your problems to your family/friends, and wish that they would just notice it and make it go away.



Why are you sad?

You are sad because of your grief



What Dark Word Represents You?

Your word is: Brood. You are a true thinker and often try to figure out the meaning of life, why we are all here etc. You may not be so social, and often think twice before acting but those thoughts you have in your mind never stop flowing in. Sometimes you can be so concentrated you forget about other things that you have to do. Don't change, this world needs deep people.



What Type of Killer Are You?

You are an assassin.
In your life you have probably been hurt many times and have gotten some mental scars. This results in you being distant from people. Though many think that you are evil, you are not. What you really are is a person trying to forget your pain and past. Even if you don't care that much for your victims, you still have the ability to care and to generally feel. It is not lost, just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to not get too noticed, and dress in black or other discrete colours. You don't like being in the spotlight and wish people would just leave you alone. But once you do get close to someone you have a hard time letting go and get real down if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote:"The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy" -Jim Rohn
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I will not fear
Fear is the mindkiller,
Fear is the little death
That brings total Oblivion
I will permit my fear to pass
Over me and through me
And where it has gone
I will turn the inner eye
Nothing will be there
Only I will remain.
~ Dune









Will you see the new me?
Or maybe I haven't changed...
Maybe you never knew me well enough to know.
So tell me who I am today,
and love me for it tomorrow.
But by the time you really see me, I'll be gone:
Forever changing
because I'm not sure of who I am anymore.
But does that matter to someone
So stolid and unchanging?
I'm just a wild thing;
nature can't even match my destruction.
But you knew what you were getting into from the start.
Didn't you?
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Laugh your heart out...
Dance in the rain...
Cherish the moments...
Forget the pain.
Live, Love, Laugh,
Forgive and Forget;
Life is too short
To live with regret.









...To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer and not to love is to suffer. To be happy then is to suffer. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer.




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Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the colors high.
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
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Some men have died
and some are alive
and others sail on the sea
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and the Devil to pay
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The bell has been raised
from it's watery grave...
Do you hear it's sepulchral tone?
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pay head the squall
and turn your sail toward home!

Yo, ho, haul together,
hoist the colors high.
Heave ho, thieves and beggars,
never shall we die.
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My world spins as the kitten grins, fading into dark repose, Eclipsing I's in water lie, the hemlock speaks no prose. For death is only Charon; the wiseman asking why. Images instated in a placid pool of poetry, Words floating upon all the tears we cry- Garbed in joy and naked sorrow dancing circles to survive, The same lute that soothes our fervid souls was hollowed out with knives. The sun burns and my kitten returns from enigma overnight, Whilst purring soft, his smile aloft winking in the light.
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