A note from the former Nipponlon

I, the one whom created Nipponlon, am Indigoth and I am indeed, male. She was born from a concept of me having an alterego and a "business account" for which to dev with. I chose to make her bi, cute, Japanese, playful and such as a way of appealing to my customers. Later on, my old girlfriend Yan-Yan, spurred me on to get the kinky images and photos that would represent my "real" self. She even helped pick a few which I find extremely shocking as she was the shy, quite type.

Since day one, this character seem to take a life all of her own. I only meant for her to be a cocktease (and clittease ^.^;) yet people, or rather my kindred reaction to people, turned her into a confidante, a companion, a rainy day friend and somewhat of a small, internet idol. One guy even suggested that I do this for a living!

And then I met the first person to drastically affect me; Sachik0.

I'm not going to get into her personality as you can easily go to her homepage and see for yourself. What I will say is that she easily saw through the whole act. Even as good as I am at leading people to believe... well, lies... without actually admitting to them, she playfully hounded me until I bowed my head and muttered the truth, simply because she wanted to know exactly who she wanted to cyber with. I felt completely naked before her and I still find it odd how tickled she was about it. Funny thing is I never touched her yet she touched me deeply by being the first to accept the real me and choose to play along.

She's also the one that found Line-Kill Spirits for me! (The fighting game where girls take upskirt shots of each other.) Gotta love that girl!

I always felt pings of regret as I was lying about myself to people who pour their hearts out to me. What made it even worse is that most of those people were lesbians and some had a really, really good reason to hate guys. Since meeting Sachik0, I decided to make the first very vague note on this homepage about not being who I say I am. I was nervous and thought people would turn on me. Much to my surprise, they loved it and loved me more for it.

The next person to influence me... Well, it is a bitter memory and, as she is a pro now, I'm not going to say her name as it may hurt her sales. I will say this though. She was remarkably pleasant, a spectacular artist and had a witty sense of humor. We talked for hours about everything and nothing and I gained a schoolboy crush on her rather quickly. I was still with Yan-Yan at the time so I definitely wasn't going to pursue but I wanted to be closer friends. So, after our second conversation, I left her a message saying I was really a guy and left a link to my Indigoth homepage.

She promptly stopped talking to me.

I was worried sick so I kept leaving message after message. I spaced them out between days as not to overdo it but I desperately wanted to know what was wrong. Finally she told me that she felt she didn't know me. I told her I was letting her know who I was upfront but she didn't want to hear it. She told me to stop contacting her and, out of respect, I agreed to do so.

With that, I left a more informed message on my homepage. It was still shady but I clearly mentioned that I was lying about who I was and asked for people to play along. Once again, people ate it up. I had gotten many messages such as, "Oh, you're so honest! I love that about you!"

What happened next is rather... odd. I was on Nipponlon less and less, trying to focused more on being Indigoth, being myself, but it wasn't working. Nipponlon got all the attention, adoration and admiration. And more and more, it was from lesbians and bi girls that just couldn't get enough of her. This got worse after my breakup with Yan-Yan. Being heartbroken and sexually oppressed is like hanging a neon sign around your neck that reads, "Screw me! I'm easy!"

I actually tried to get some of them to talk to me on my Indigoth account. There were a few whom I told who I really was but they'd rather talk to Nipponlon. Those that didn't know, I left messages as Indi and tried the honest and sincere approach. They would have none of me and some of the responses were less than pleasant. In time, I actually became jealous of Nipponlon as, even with her account being younger and less active, she got more visits and more presents. As her, I lied, teased and was more scandalous but was loved for it. As myself, I was sweet, compassionate and honest but was disregarded. It became blatantly obvious that it all boiled down to Nipples being favored simply because she was a girl and I'm not. This only fueled a long-standing bitterness I've had for females and one which I desperately try so hard to get rid of.

Eventually I wrote a goodbye message and stopped being her. I told people I was overwhelmed but that was only part of the truth. Along with getting multiple invites within 1 minute of signing on, I didn't want to lie anymore, even if people knew I was lying. I also hated her or rather hated the idea that some fantasy girl I made up could ever be more popular than the real me. She had to go.

Months later, I met and befriended a real Japanese girl whom I have nicknamed Osaka amongst other things. Not only is she a sweet, kinky lesbian but she has Nipple's insatiable panty fetish and her personality couldn't be any more adorable even if you gift-wrapped her with teddybear print paper. She wanted an account with all the perks so she was the perfect person to give Nipponlon to. Of course, I still have access and control over the account (so IMVU can't take away the ap pass as it was never fully given away) but it's hers to do with as she likes.

Now I find myself at an impasse. A close friend has once again awaken in me the drive and desire to do a female character once more. I'm not going to take over Nipponlon again as, even with Osaka's absence, it's still her show. Instead, I'm thinking about using my barely touched (and I do mean BARELY) alt, Ichigoth, to do this persona again. Of course, this time I will be completely truthful about the pretenses of playing a kinky, Asian girl but I want the opinion of Nipponlon's friends first. If you like it, hate it, or just wish to have Nipples back in another form, please let me know on my Indigoth account. I would love to hear from you.

A note from the present Nipponlon