*Surrounded by darkness, she closes her eyes as she tries to fight away the tears… "I won’t let this get to me, I’m supposed to be stronger than that” she thinks to herself. Brushing away the dry tears on her cheeks, she gazes into the sky, wondering what to do next. Nothing really seemed to matter anymore; it seems as though everything she touches or grew close to couldn’t care for her in the way she needed. A sadness fills her as she thinks back to everyone and everything in her life, now gone because it wasn’t enough…no one understood her. “I miss my happiness” she thinks to herself as she feels her scar under her eye, pulsating under her touch as though it too felt her pain. Her scar was the only thing left of her past she was willingly to hold on to; everything else had to be forgotten or she would never be able to truly move on…
She looks around once more; her haven once looked upon as an escape from the drama and pain of reality is now as empty as her heart and spirit. With a sigh she looks behind her. Her shadow stood there beside her…”Well, I guess it’s time to go huh?”
I tried to wait, but my heart couldn’t take the hurt anymore and eventually broke until there was nothing left of it…and my heart feels nothing~
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Dear friend, visitor, or other…
Greetings and welcome to my page. I hope you find it to your liking. Allow me to introduce myself…I am lavenderturtle, but you may call me lav *smirks*. What am I you ask…I am a warrior, shapeshifter, furry, perhaps you may even call me a fallen angel, but most importantly, I am a friend to those that prove themselves worthy. Now before I continue this intro be warned, I tend to go on tangents and ramble so if you read this intro in its entirety kudos to you…
Now for some facts about myself…I’m a cynical, sarcastic, spunky, hardheaded, sweet, caring, intelligent, unique individual (I know, my traits contradict themselves, ha). All I ask is that you don’t judge me until you get to know me first…I might surprise you. In addition, I think it’s important that you know that I am not (and let me reemphasize this for those of you that don’t like to heed warnings) a typical girl. Oh sure, I’m sure lots of people say that they’re not a “typical person”…that they’re unique or even weird, but do they really mean it, let alone know what it means to be different? Probably not. Thanks to this biased society that sets the standards for how we should look, act, behave, etc, it’s hard for anyone to truly be different or unique. Yet somehow I pulled it off (now if that’s good or bad that’s for you to decide). In layman’s terms…I don’t always agree with the standards or stereotypes set by others so I go against them, simple as that. But I won’t go into that right now or else this intro will turn into a blog (wait…I think it already has, oops, lol).
I love to meet new and interesting people so feel free to talk to me if you feel you can handle my wit. I'm also very protective of my friends and if I even think you're looking at them the wrong way...yeah, expect a nice little visit from me.
And yes I do roleplay...I'm able to fit into almost any type of character (probably why I'm a shapeshifter, go figure). Like me, my character does tend to have a complex persona; however, I ask one thing if you choose to roleplay with me keep in mind this is just for fun people. Believe it or not there is a difference between fantasy and reality, as difficult as that might be for some of you to grasp *glares at certain people that have allowed rp to take over their lives*
Okay, one more thing…yes, I tend to page hop so if I come to your page and don’t leave a message, please don’t be offended; most times I just like to look for new ideas or creative pages. Not to mention I hate those cliché messages (I like your page, avi, etc). Plus the few times I have left messages, no one really seems grateful or responds to them…I guess I don’t see the point in leaving a message if it's not appreciated. Is that wrong, perhaps, but in case you haven’t noticed by now I’m a realistic cynic. I don’t always see the bright side of things so meh.
*grins* well I warned y’all this intro would be long…just hope it wasn’t too much for some of y’all. Until later, take care and stay sweet~
