My name is Stacey, I am the website owner of IMVU Stylez. I am 23 years old and I currently live in Washington, USA.
I am single, but that's not my number one priority. I am looking to getting my life together. I am attending college, working my way towards getting an associates for web design.
I'm unemployed. At the moment I am aiming towards joining a college program from Disney. I would work at one of the parks for 6 months, giving me experience in life and employment.
I have wonderful friends whom I treasure. Shoutouts to Ken, Spirink, Productions, SubtlyCharmed, Gaf210, Kimi, & Antonio82.
I want to also send a shoutout to Mike, who doesn't have imvu but is equally important to me.
If you're not on the list, it's nothing against you - I just haven't formed the friendship that I share with these amazing people. Who knows? Maybe you and I will become amazing friends eventually. Don't give up hope.
I love music, it's always been a part of me. I play the piano and I sing. My audience usually includes the soap and shampoo, they're big fans.
I write songs & poetry when I'm stressed and I just need to pour things out. It's a good venting tool. Sometimes you discover things you didn't know you were thinking about.
I love games, I own a ps2/GC/Gameboy SP/N64/Sega. I rely on gameplay more than graphics. You can have an amazing game with poor graphics, it is a very strong possibility. My favorite games include the Kingdom Hearts series & the Tales series (Tales of Symphonia anyone?).
My favorite artists/bands include Fefe Dobson, Skye Sweetnam, Demi Lovato, Me First & The Gimme Gimmes, Kris Allen, Alih Jey, Avril Lavigne, & Ryan Cabrera.
My favorite tv shows include Supernatural, Fringe, The Vampire Diaries, Smallville, Heroes, The Ghost Whisperer, Medium, Glee. The shows that I will miss, and should have never been canceled include Moonlight & Eli Stone.
I don't accept random add requests, I have to talk to you a few times before I add people. It's nothing personal, I just tend to keep my friend list purely for friends.
I love messages, and I hope you send me a message! I try to respond to all of them. ~Punkette
November 5, 2009
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG - Disney presentation today!! My second step towards my goal. *crosses fingers* EVERYONE WISH ME LUCK! ~Punkette
November 4, 2009
Of course, things just arn't working out for me. One thing that I've been holding onto for hope has dropped. There's only a couple things left that I can hold onto before I sink.
Only a few friends have been there for me recently (and very very few friends, meaning I can count them on one hand). I get the "hi's" and such from a few more, but only a few who will let me actually cry and vent. I know it's not like I don't deserve people to be there for me, I've been a great friend to a lot of them. And yet, the time I need them - only a few stick around.
Actually, only one has been there for me. I know another is dealing with his own things, so I forgive him for that. But there are a few friends who I would've thought...Oh well..
Whatever ~Punkette
November 1, 2009
Shitango happens again. Today I found out my mom and stepdad (who's pretty much like my father) are getting divorced. I've already been through one divorce when I was 9. Was not pretty, but my dad didn't help things at all. I don't think this divorce will be messy, because I know my stepdad and I don't see him causing problems. It's just hard because he is like my father, more than my real dad is.
The split with me and Josh has been getting easier, but it's bumpy a lot of times. There's more tension in the air than anything. This whole divorce with my mom just tops the cake and I need/will focus on this more than my breakup because my 12 year old brother is involved.
I don't think reality has hit my brother yet. We just talked on the phone not that long ago, and he seemed like everything was just fine. I just told him I'm here for him, I've been through this before and I'm the only sibling he has who remembers the prior divorce between my parents. I could tell by his voice that he knows that and he very much appreciated it. I love my brother very much and I try to be there for him whenever I can, no matter what.
I cried earlier, and saying the word "divorce" outloud just makes me start crying again. Typing it is easier, but not that much.
Hopefully this Disney opportunity coming up will at least make some parts of my life okay. I know the light is there in this dark tunnel, I just gotta hold onto that thought. ~Punkette
October 28, 2009
Eep! I haven't updated in..wow..lol, a while. Mm..let's see..midterms, blah blah blah..
OH! I went to my mums for a few days, my little brother was sick so I took care of him. It also gave me a chance to get away, if you know what I mean. It was nice to think without having distractions around. I realized I was not stuck, I DO have options. It's just figuring out which is the best option for me at this point. I can deal with this living situation, I can get through it. It's my best option at the moment, but NOT my only option. I think knowing that you have more cards in your hand helps, a lot.
I've been working on my doll series while I was away, I finished it - I think...10 should be enough, right? lol. Anyway, yeah..that's about it?
Crap, I forgot! I passed 10k worth of visitors. Took me..about 4 years, but blah lol! FINALLY!! ~Punkette
October 19, 2009
Dear Diary,
Why do I feel so sad? I have every reason to be happy, for the most part. I just feel numb inside, even though I put on this fake smile and act like things are okay. I feel like I'm trapped inside a tall giant glass aquarium, screaming my lungs out and banging on the walls. I can't breath, it's hard.
Today was probably one of those days that I think things that I shouldn't. I've been through this before, and I know how the outcome would be. It's nothing pleasant, but it's the only way that I can see things getting better. Basically I feel like things have to get worse before they get better. I know I promised myself that I wouldn't go that route again, but I'm desperate.
Living with Josh hurts more than I thought it would. Today he was talking about his date last night, and I told him I didn't want to hear it. He got pissed and went mumbling off into whatever thing he was doing. I knew he was mad that I said that, but I had every right to. Probably 10 minutes later I explained that it's just awkward for me to hear those things. I also explained to him in the evening that lately he hasn't even been acting like a friend to me at all. We agreed to be just friends, and it seemed like it would work - but now he's been treating me like shit.
Sadly, he knows I'm stuck here. My other options to living here are worse, and he knows that.
I'm trying to hold on, hopefully it'll be 2-3 months and this will all be over and I'll be moving on - but can I hold on until then? I'm trying to fight and keep myself from falling, I'm just tired of it. ~Punkette
I started my first contest in a long time. Homepage Spotlight is an every-month thing, but I'm talking about one of those kinds that are just one-time deals. I thought it was cool. I'm interested in seeing the pumpkin designs!
Yesterday I started feeling like total crap, so not fun. It's miserable. I tried to cancel my appointment for today but I would have been charged because it was less than 24-hour notice. Even though I was an hour off. What the hell? I seriously was shocked, but I am not going to be charged. So I'm sticking it out. It's a bigger deal for me to go out, feeling like crap - because I have to ride the bus. Driving a car, you're sitting and comfortable and it's less time consuming. Riding the bus, you have to walk a lot and when you're feeling like crap - it's not fun at all!
I think today I can finally get my second life account back. I got it disabled due to reasons I will not discuss here, but it's not my fault. You know that I'm one of those "goody-goody" people that try to stay good to the rules. I'll be glad to get it back, it's more relaxing than anything to me.
I started making Halloween stickers yesterday as well. I've made a total of 7. I made 3 pumpkins, 3 witches, and 1 funny ghost sticker. I think bling/badge collectors will get a kick out of the ghost one. I'm supposedly known for my humor stickers; GlobalX has more of them than this account, but it's still me so it's fine.
Anyway, that's pretty much it! ~Punkette
October 12, 2009
Dear Diary,
I created a new layout, put it up. I think it looks nice. It's interesting though - I started the layout when I was really depressed, each day it would change. The mood of it has drastically changed from when I started. It was really cool to see the difference.
I'm currently listening to Ryan Cabrera's album "Take It All Away". It seems to soothe me really well, I forgot I even had it until recently. I found it in my 100+ cd stack, all dusty in one of the corners of my apartment. I was talking to Ken and I was going to show him a version of a song I had, so I went to look for it in the cd stack that I seldom use anymore, thanks to mp3's. As I was looking, I stumbled upon that album and was like "oh yeah!", so I grabbed it. I need relaxing music at this point in my life. Major changes, it's hard when you get out of a 4 year relationship.
I'm glad it's worked out the way it did though. I'd rather leave the relationship on good terms than leave when we absolutely hate each other. Sadly, it was getting to that point. He recently got on imvu again, which I've been bugging him about for ages. I don't mind though, I like imvu - despite it's problems. I've also recently got into SecondLife (poor unicorns ~ inside joke).
Shortly after my breakup I weeded out my friend list. I removed a bunch of people for various reasons, some I miss more than others. But I know my reasons are solid, and I'm sticking to it - no matter how hard the decision was. It wasn't a spur of the moment decision either, I had thought about it for a while.
I hardly ever keep diaries, but I feel like I need one during this time of my life. Having it on my profile will help me keep track of it, since I go to my profile a lot. We'll see where this goes though. ~Punkette
