Back to a few months ago I was in a coffee shop in France. We were there two days in a row ordering the same thing. When we crossed into each other, I think that was the best moment of my life. The green in her eyes that sparkled so vibrantly and the red in her hair that smelled like roses. Her eyes looked weary and tired though, and I felt like I was able to see myself through her. I lived a day with her. I went to the doctors with her, and I breathed her crazy life that is similar to mine. We talked, cried, laughed, and held each other the very first day. It's been that strong ever since. Paige was a fearless, determined and outgoing loving girl that any person deserved to have in her life. I'll miss you Paige. You still are a person that is close to my heart, and I will try my hardest to complete your life. The way you wished it to be, and the way You would've wanted me too. Thursday -- October 8th, 2009 and 5:32am. Her hand loosened in mine and she breathed her last breath, so there I laid helplessly seeing her life taken before my eyes.
Everyone is still considered a child until they reach that moment in there life that cannot get over a disappointment or some sort of shock. Not that little love incident, that break up, where you mourn over for weeks and two years you will get over it and wont remember. No that event that is marked with you, wherever you go. ~Esma Bouzina~
Well this is just cause I would like to do a little about me, its not like people read these things, but I would be pleased if you do. First.. My name is Esma. I really don't like to waste my time if you are fake. I have better people to meet. Same thing, if you lie. I really don't like those type of people, such a waste of energy.. its pathetic. I am [single]. I currently live in California. I love to laugh and to have fun just about as much as I can. I have been through so much that I can just absolutely laugh to the lamest things. I seek happiness in this life, and no you cannot prevent me from wanting it to be hold in my fingers. I can be really deep. Also, don't insult my intelligence; that will degrade you and have you in regrets. I probably sound like a "no fun" person, but really there is something about me; I am like a diary. You can tell me anything, and it will always be kept with me. So, I am an proudly to say, I am an honest person :). I am always open to ideas. Please don't ask for cyber, webcams, and all that other shitty things. I Cannot HATE anyone and I don't ever judge. I also, don't feel like begging people anymore to leave messages..I'll just let it be up to you.
The first step towards vice is to shroud innocent actions in mystery, and whoever likes to conceal something sooner or later has reason to conceal it.
~Jean Jacques Rousseau~ Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet. ~Plato~
I have reasons for my music... you don't like? Just pause or skip.
From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.
