I think the word sorry is used far to often. Half the time, no make that three quarters of the time, the person uttering it, truly isn't sorry at all. Or it is just so inadequate to begin with, it should never have been uttered in the first place. Uncomfortably long silence after something is shared? Sorry. Someone just found out they have a terminal disease. Sorry. Someone's loved one just passed away. Sorry. Someone just lost everything they owned in a house fire. Sorry. You get the idea. It has become so common place to say how sorry you are. Why is that? You want to hopefully make someone feel better, right? Do you honestly think sorry has that effect? If there is anything at all I can do to help you, please don't hesitate to let me know. I think that would be so much better than... Sorry.

Monkey see... Monkey flip you the bird. I really need to visit the dentist. My teeth cleaning is overdue. No need to give my Dad a break, and not go. How nice of IMVU to hook me up with a cup of hot chocolate. I bet I wait years before I get a refill. Customer service is definitely not a strong suit around here. I bought a new hoody today, oh and some socks. All is right in my world. Ash bought a blindfold and dice game. Yes. Everything, is right in my world.

How good are nachos? I know right! Damn good. I left my mitts on the bus today. Someone actually turned them in. I will get them back tomorrow. I didn't even bother inquiring, I thought it would be a waste of time. My Mom, who thankfully is more optimistic than myself, called. Christmas carols already? Gah. I am not one to go looking for a fight. I will however, say my peace. Don't try to walk all over me. I won't allow it. I still detest doing laundry.

I am S L O W L Y getting 3ds Max. It is a bitch. Maybe, Al Snore is onto something, after all. It has been pretty mild weather wise. No snow in sight. A man was in a coma for 23 years. Damn. He apparently heard everything the entire time. All I could think of upon hearing that, was Uma Thurman's character in Kill Bill. Hopefully, nothing like that occurred.

It is so very easy to take a step and fall into that black hole of "What If". Oh so very easy. What if I had walked away, instead of persisting in talking? What if I had allowed myself to cool down? What if? What if? What if? Would I still be sitting here wondering? Fuck knows. Fuck knows, and isn't sharing. Fuck, can be one greedy bish. Every time I go to click on add friend, something stops me. I never removed in the first place. Maybe, I don't wish to give someone, that chance again. Fuck knows.

On to happier thoughts. Wheel of Fortune is on now. I enjoy Wheel. I really don't understand why people buy vowels early on in the puzzle. Ninety percent of the time they end up hitting bankrupt or lose your turn shortly there after. Let's see Pat... I'll buy a "Help out the next guy". Oh I mean "Vowel". Right. Anywhore, Wheel of Fortune makes me yell at the TV. I just sneezed seven times. Do you look inside your Kleenex after blowing your nose? I do. It's compulsion. Has to be done. I was driving my cousins car today, it is stick. I stalled at the lights. Green light... Go. Uh, stall. HONK! HONK! Now I am sorta amused and pissed at the same time. Odd combo, yes. Amused because honking at someone isn't really calming them in order to execute the whole step on the clutch, ease up and step on the gas maneuvering required in order to get through the light before it changes back to red. Pissed because there could be any number of reasons why I have not gone flying through the intersection. I mean hello it is green. I obviously do have some reason for still sitting here. Now shut the fuck up, and lay off your god damn horn. Thank you, kindly. I guess that wasn't so happy. I blame Fuck.

Whoever invented cupcakes totally has my admiration. I mean it is a cake for one. Yes. Cupcake sales pwn. It has snowed sparingly, not one flake on the ground. I am jonesing to go boarding. How do you know Smurfette is the only smurf to recycle? Cuz she is the one with the blue box...

Oh hell, Survivor has been entertaining this time around. Love him or hate him, Russell does make people tune in. Three immunity idols. Three. Lawlipop at the look on Laura's face at Tribal. I admit I have liked Shambo up to this point. However, when she openly laughed out loud, when Laura's chances at winning immunity were quelled, I admit to cringing. I hate poor sportsmanship. Hate it. Not to mention everybody voted out, subsequently has a seat on the jury. Use your head. At least wait till you're alone to laugh it up. That mac and cheese on the reward challenge looked damn goood. Yes I know I added to many O's, it was done on purpose. Goood! Procrastination is no friend of mine. My sleep is so outta whack. I heart granny apples.

She comes to me, when I least expect her
All smiles and seduction, winking
Her hips sway to the song that exists only in my head
Her eyes piercing, beckoning
I go willingly

Did you go to bed feeling loved? At peace? Did you wake up today and have happy thoughts enter your cerebrum? I have many things to be thankful for. I am thankful for Ash. I find myself daydreaming more often. I envision our future, together. It makes me smile. I am in love. I love to walk hand in hand, our strides in sync. Share a special smile, knowing she is thinking exactly the same thoughts as I am. I am in love. I am thankful for my Mom. It is scary yet incredibly awesome at the same time, how much our parents shape who we become. My Mom is a kind, compassionate, caring, beautiful human being. I am one of the lucky ones.

I am thankful for IMVU, without it I would not have encountered some pretty amazing people. Some are no longer in my life, that however, doesn't diminish the laughter we shared. Good times. I love you guys.

Blueberry pancakes... the things that dreams are made of. Who knew you had to click shift in order for the extrude tool to work in 3ds max? Certainly not I. That is kind of an important step to overlook when making a tutorial. Damn it. Thank god for Google. Bows down to it's awesomeness. I heart hugs. I heart my Grandma, and could not imagine sleeping with anyone who was rude to her. Alphabags of the world get bent. I wish I got paid to blog. That would rank in coolness right behind penguin ice cubes. I am very tired. G'night.