People ask me at times what my dreams are but I never tell anyone the truth. I hide the fact that I love to write and sing. I have always loved to sing and write but im not good of thinking up things to write. I dont understand why some people can do what they love and some cant. It confuses me at times. But my one true passion is singing. I have been singing since i was little. I sing to let out the hurt and pain deep inside my heart. I sing to get my feelings out and in the open. I tell some what truely bothers me but not always. I have had a very hard life growing up. Alot of things from my past haunt me in my sleep and i try to understand why. I never understand why people say or do the things they choose but for me, i honestly dont know how much more crap can be throw at me before i snap. I wont hurt my friends or family but I will protect at all costs. my friends and family are very close to my heart and always will be. people say that they have alot of friends, but, how many of those friends are true friends... no one can honestly say that every friend is true... when i sing i let out all of these feelings hoping someday i will have an answer to them. sometimes i wish that the ones who hurt me most disappear but not always... when im sure what i want to do with life i take time and think but it doesnt always help. my mom tried to tell me not to keep so much bottled up because it would hurt more in the end and she was right. some of what i hide inside, i have hid from others for years. i dont know if i will ever tell anyone everything but i will tell what i am comfortable telling. its just complicated but someday i will someone everything.