Dearest IMVU,
When I first discovered you, it was love at first sight. The more I explored what you offered me, the more I came to love you. As time passed however, you presented a different side. A side that was disrespectful, and very abusive to me and others. I tolerated your behavior, and your attacks upon me - only because I loved you, and the future that you offered me. It seems however that the more I turned the other cheek, dismissed your insults, and made excuses for your immature and childish behavior - the more you abused me. There always seems to be something around the corner, and I never know what to expect. On one hand you assure me that you care about me and you only want to do right by me.. on the other hand, you turn around and break your promises and abuse me even more than before. Every apology you make seems to mean nothing as you push me into the corner and hurt me more. I was committed to the future we shared. I was loyal first and foremost to you, and I gave you everything I had. Today I find myself alone, cold, and miserable.. I am hurt, bruised, battered, and seething with anger and disappointment. A part of me still loves you and wishes for you to get better - but the logical side of me tells me I can expect only more abuse at your hands. As much as it pains me I need to find a better future - without you. I hope you change and I hope you improve. I hope you have a happy story to fulfill, but I must for my own sanity and happiness move on without you. Before I pack up and continue on to a better life, maybe even a Second Life.. I want to remind you of what lead up to this moment - most of it occurring within the last year or so.
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One of the things I loved about you was what you offered me. You gave me a chance to express my creativity, and at the same time gain income. For a long time, things were good - and we both prospered from my hard work. Out of no where, full of doomsday and rhetoric you came at me. You spoke of economic disaster and you begged me to help you work it out. I tried, and I remained hopeful even though I knew something was particularly wrong. Of all that I could do, nothing was good enough. Instead you thanked me for my hard work - and then issued forth a solution that only served to hurt me. You forced me to accept payment for my work with paltry coins.. coins that were futilely useless to me. They meant nothing to me and lacked any kind of value to replace what I was losing. Still yet.. I loved you and trusted you.. I stood strong and marched on....
Great Castration
My freedom of expression.. my freedom as an adult. You forced me down and treated me as a child. You took away control of my creativity and chastised me for my desire to express. At first I was in shock.. then I shook myself and I told myself that it was just one type of expression.. I could live without it. Had I known what would come later.. I never would have listened. I would have cried out and fought harder to keep my freedoms, my expressions, and my maturity. How foolish I was.. how naive I was to believe that it was only my maturity you would take. Had I only known....
Apology/Refund
You wooed me back, and you held me close apologizing for what you put me through. I believed you and turned to you to put things right. You did.. and for once I was happy that the faith I put into you was well founded. It wasn't long before you proved me a fool again.. and made me forget that you ever apologized for your actions....
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You told me to give you another chance. You told me to have faith and give you time to make it up to me. You gave me a new way to communicate with you... I found a sliver of light in the dark days. I found hope. You took my hope and you dashed it against the rough boulders below. You threw away everything you said, and you never listened to what I said. You didn't follow through and carry out what you claimed you would - instead you stood back laughing as I foolishly accepted things would get better. Now, even now - this foolish lie that I accepted haunts me in a new incarnation. I can feel its breath on my neck and I know that it can still fool me. I know it can still serve only your whims and designs.
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I waited.. and I waited. You told me that you finally understood. You told me that a change was coming and it would satisfy me. You said that things would be better. Finally the day came and I was floored. My heart hit the floor.. your promises turned to ash in my stomach. I saw your change, and I watched as you smiled and twisted that change only to serve your selfish need to live through me. I watched and listened as your promise truth sang a hideous song of what would come.. a song that gave me nightmares and cold chills. Still yet... I loved you and I hoped....
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I contributed, and I tried. I did what you asked of me - and I worked hours a day trying to please you. I spent countless hours searching and combing. I found everything you said was wrong, and I began fixing it. I did what you requested of me and I was proud of myself for living up to your expectations. I was proud of you for finally making something right. Imagine the shock and the horror I felt when you shoved me to my knees and railed against me. Imagine the deep sadness that wracked me as you punished me for doing what it was you told me to do. I was alone and confused, wondering just what it was I had done so wrong. Did I misunderstand your instructions? Did I not pay close enough attention to your demands? What did I do wrong? Today I realize that what I did wrong was doing what you said I should do in the first place. Had I known then what I know now - I would have saved myself the pain and suffering at your hands.
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What you did... was something I never thought possible. I never thought that you would stop listening. I knew you could ignore what I said, and I knew that you would only act when it served you. I had grown to accept these simple truths. What I never expected however was to be silenced... to be cold, alone, and unheard. I never thought it possible to be banished from your presence for anything - let alone for being honest with you. How could I have ever accept that? Did you think that you had worn me down enough that I could accept everything and anything? Did you think that I wouldn't turn to another? Am I a fool for it... or are you? Time will tell, but I know that what you did was a blessing. It was a relief and even pleasurable to be dismissed from your presence. It gave me room to breathe, and it gave me room to think. More importantly, it gave me what I needed to seek out something better for myself and others.
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I think back.. I think back to the first time you robbed me of my hard work. I still have your coins, and I chuckled ruefully as I shook them in my hand. I couldn't help but smile when I saw you repeat yourself. Doomsday and economic disaster. You need more help now from me... you are singing your sweet lullaby once more. I know your game and I know you better than before. I know that this sweetly sick little song of yours will play on into eternity if I continue to listen and give into you. Am I still a fool? Will I give into you again? Will I appease you and have a little more hope that you will do right by me? Perhaps all the hope is dead and the fool is gone. Perhaps no one is listening to you anymore.
If all of that was not enough.. if all of the abuse and disrespect of the year hadn't been enough to convince me... something else has. I've suffered at your hands - indifference,bullying, threats, banishment, false promises, and lack of action. Make no mistake, there is a lot more that I'm not saying, many more things that you have done to me and even a few things I know you're thinking about doing. On the horizon I see more and more abuse coming with more issues. Throughout the last year, I've looked closely into you during these episodes and I've discovered many more issues that you cannot seem to admit to yourself or to me. I fear that those issues that you deny will explode into even more abuse as the days past. It is perhaps that fact, more so then the past abuse, that drives me away and makes me seek out comfort somewhere else. As I close the door and walk away... I hope that you think about everything I leave you - and I hope you find others that will embrace you while you change. If that is never to become a reality, then I hope that you fall before you can harm anyone else. Regardless, you will never harm me again no matter what you do because I won't be home when you get here. Goodbye.
P.S. You will find in the future - your world will be a lot more happier if you stop shooting yourself in the foot, and stop abusing those that love you the most. On that same note, if you continue to give into the demands of those who hold your favor, those that do not care about the future and what it holds - but only care about the profit they can make now and what they gain from you now - you will find yourself as you left me time and time again. Cold, Miserable, and Alone.
Relationship Status: Married Orientation: Straight Looking For: Other
