Guest_ChickenMatt
Avatar since: 07/23/08

Male
Age: 18
Singapore
Last log on: 10/01/08

"I KNEW IT! I can't love anyone anymore! They just go away from me."

I'm Matt. I do drugs & I drink a lot. I prefer being alone to perfect my problems, away from any distractions. I'm sometimes a happy person, but my serious side always gets the most of me. I don't have any friends, and I don't want any. Staying away from love. Break my heart once, fine, but twice, never. I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. There isn't much that I want out of life, but life sure does want a lot out of me. Everyone expects me to be like they are. I'm always stared at because of how I choose to dress. People judge me before they get to know me. You'll get bored with me quick if I don't find interest in you. These days, it's impossible to find someone like you. You need to travel far and wide to find that special something or someone that will heal your wounds. I've come to learn that building up my problems is the only way to survive. I've become used to being yelled at, used to being hated, and used to being laughed at. I couldn't ask for more. I do look it, but I don't act like it. Having long, black hair with piercings and colorful clothing doesn't make you look cool, I just choose to be different. Music is my life. I love listening to loud music for hours. What's the point of going up to someone and speaking to them? You don't know how to make a good first impression, because there is no such thing as one. The only good impression you have is being yourself. Everyone will notice that right away, even if they don't know who you are. I love getting the chance to help the ones that I love. The few of them, at least. Because of this, I never get the opportunity to help myself. I'm a failure today, and I'll be one tomorrow, and the day after. I play the guitar.