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About Me

Fairae
Avatar since: 09/15/07

Female
Age: 21

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United States - AZ
Last log on: 08/31/08

"Time is a precious thing to waste, but friends are more precious."

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Relationship Status: Married
Orientation: Straight
Looking For: Friendship

Special Someone

RisingPhoenix123

MY WEDDING VOW

When we first met, for some reason inside,
even if we were complete strangers...
You were different.

I felt it in my heart for the first time...
that you were the first guy I could trust.
And getting to know you more, the deeper
the trust started to blossom...

We became great friends.

But sooner or later, it started to become
more than that.

It took so long for that courage to bloom
because of everything that was going on in
my life.

But you taught me to not be afraid.

And I started to open up to you.
More than I would... to anyone...

And my heart started to feel more emotions,
more joy... everytime I heard your voice, I
just wanted to be closer to you...

It's been so long i've felt this way.
And as i've said before...

The ocean in my heart that I was trapped in...
you became the waves, and helped me push my past
away and brought me forth into the future to start anew.

That's where I want to be...

And it's thanks to you I can be myself again.

My Interests

These poems are all my own. Do respect them as you would to your own belongings. They are the heart of my soul.Please feel free to read them as you like. Many are my own songs I have written. Enjoy.

~Fairae~

Beyond

Beyond the cold and shiny Crystal-realms of pain,
Beyond everything,
Everything what's insane;

Beyond the graveyard
Of broken promises,
Beyond memories
of forgotten kisses,

Beyond distance,
And the dead-end road,
Beyond your endless search
For fools shining gold,

Beyond love
And beyond hate,
Beyond every teardrop
We ever betrayed

Beyond the years passed by
And the decades yet to come;
Beyond the centuries
You will spend alone.

Beyond solitude,
And insanity
Beyond hope
That's where you'll find me.

Search heaven, search hell,
I'd be surprised if you really found me there.

Search the Earth, and search the skies
You'd better search behind your own disguise.

Search the heights and search below;
Behind walls of ice, and beyond the rainbow.

Search the Field of Darkness where dreams go to die
Beyond faith and beyond lie

Just keep on searching, I don't exist at all
Until you find me, find me in your soul.

Torn By A Moment

In terror
shakes her soul
In a twisted fear of shame
Calling in a distance
But who is there to blame

But a flawless figure
Like an angel in white snow
Whispers of a fallen face
Shaking in it's core

Forever does she lust
For the love she adored
Every mist of her tears
Pour out wanting more

She falls to her slumber
waiting patiently to die
entertwined by her sorrow
hear her whispers in her cry

Mirror Of Mine

It's easy to believe myself I'm doing fine.
All my decisions are only mine.
I control my world, My own destiny.
And it doesn't hurt.

To think of all the things I had to lose
Somewhere deep in the raging storm of time...

It's easy to say I'm standing proud and still.
I'm free to do my will.
I love this life.
This crazy strife.
I really don't need anything
to get me through the show but another thrill...

But when I look into the mirror,
I can't find myself anymore.

Deserted Clouds

In a tilt of ties
that follows
and dreams in sentences
we crack a nature
as your heart refines
and overflows in resilience

she says...

I'll drop the weighted notions
and vaguely vanish
inside the flesh of our fetish
with one another
nibbling at the toes of fortune
and hiding from negative opinions
options that can't exist
until bitter minds focus
and fall existentially

if i can dream
with two lives weighted
against the opportunity to fail
then who can pity me
if one day, touch mends my humanity
then who can find me
hiding beneath my dreams
in a world of possibility
faintly vanishing
to hold everything i've come to know

Fall Into Pieces

halt this refuge
saved from penetration
as love falters sky light

who isolates this savior
swaying in the dimmed surroundings
bleeding for our skin
and second guessing the past

memory changed for the sake of credit
this flowing gold brings a new voice

ignorant tho sleeping
only chance plays the gambit
and feels out a kissing demon

press your lips together
to love a new serpent
held in condolences
such a pitiful crawler.....

Eyes, Flies, and Dust

fluctuating eyelashes , clicking
ive got to get your eyes off me
pink as lovers ,a lovely curiosity
but deathly surrounds you

drive me home , put me to sleep
give me a sedative and defile my dreams
did you come to watch me die
or are your eyes unsure of their surroundings

let the whole sky fall
and let my whole world die
let the whole world know
and let your two eyes cry
im sick of your care
dementia sets in
and im sick of your stare

just let the sky fall ....

Can't Sleep

cant wake up
ive been rendered
a title on my forehead
rather than dead
states im alive
id rather not be
but i cant play dead
How disappointing

cant sleep
my mind is weary
and thoughts rage on
ive been so angry
but words integrate
and mend my fear

what a nice tongue
these serpents speak with
telling me how to feel
but violently lashing me

shut you out
i cant help my positivity
positively killing you
my certainty rides on lightning
and splits you at the roots
just walk away
kill your thoughts
and never speak again

Live Like A Child

being gone ,away from here
no one stays so close or near
every word i say, crawls away
and id love to live another day
but im wounded and out of lust
it always comes down to trust

never say i didnt try
always with your tears you cry

again and again

id love to trace your pretty face
tie you up with a silver lace
ill saturate this lovely day
shes never coming out to play

never say i didnt try
always with your tears you cry

again and again

Healing You From Shame

lips around my finger
sirens playing my silence
i am descriptive ,deranging
feeling this is insecure

and all i know slips away
my mind feeling bellowed
hallow and fragile,this...

insecurity causing sickness
healing this ,im objective
objecting to myself
but not really knowing ...anything

kiss , a thought around me
silence causing my malice
i am destructive ,depriving
notions feeling ... insecure...
why are you so insecure

Stability

metallic and cold
with an image like death
sharp on two lines
inhale to loose your breath

stab yourself and bleed
but don’t focus on the pain
focus on the anger
flowing from your brain

take this blissful moment
a willful pain to endure
enjoy the feeling of lonesomeness
and allow your sight to blur

lean back your head
and let the music play
feel the vibrations
embrace the decay...

Autumn Love

As autumn leaves are carried by the wind
I place a jacket on the cold shoulder next to me
It seems like your strong voice and innocent face
Is shined on by the sunlight

In my heart, I always want to protect you

When we speak to each other, the air we breathe is visible
These overflowing memories are all for you
Our pleasant times together will always rest in my mind
You resemble a kitten when you're surprised by words
When I take your hand, you try to act like you aren't bothered
Tomorrow is filled with dreams we will face together
I feel as though we're creating our own paths

How far can I fly with your dreams?

I will wipe away all your tears
The light shines on us, showing its approval
It has combined our feelings without hesitation
Honestly, I think I will lose you
The truth awakens when I close my eyes
No matter how many times this season approaches me
I will always swear to this love, that will never change

How far can I fly with your dreams?

I will wipe away all your tears
In my heart, I always want to protect you
When we speak to each other, the air we breathe is visible
These overflowing memories are all for you
Our pleasant times together will always rest in my mind

For this silent love, I sing to you, only to you

Insanity

I feel the dark cold clammy touch of it
It haunts me in my dreams
It makes me cry and wonder why
I suffer as I do.

I wonder when it will go away
When the pain will subside
But as I sit here in my false reality
My mind and soul slowly die.

My tears stain my cheeks as they slide down my face
It hurt so long, so long
I've kept these tears deep inside
That relief is bitterly sweet.

My head is pounding and my brain is swimming
My eyes are red and sore
I feel my heart is at its last
I can feel the fear no more.

My body is slowly numbing
The pain is almost gone
I close my eyes and prepare myself
For my mind is at its last.

My throat goes dry as sand
My skin is freezing cold
But I lie awake
Eyes as wide as ever

But my mind has become no more.

DEATH

always cruel, Pity's foe in chief
Mother who brought forth grief
Merciless judgment and without appeal!

Since thou alone hast made my heart to feel
This sadness and unweal
My tongue upbraideth thee without relief.

And now my voice uncuth
Behoves me speak the truth

Touching thy cruelty and wickedness
Not that they be not known; but nevertheless
I would give hate more stress

With them that feed on love in very sooth
Out of this world thou hast driven courtesy
And virtue, dearly prized in womanhood
And out of youth's gay mood

The lovely lightness is quite gone through thee
Whom now I mourn, no man shall learn from me

Save by the measure of these praises given
Whoso deserves not Heaven

May never hope to have her company

Spoken Hearse

You can't quit until you try
You can't live until you die

You can't learn to tell the truth.
Sewed your mouth shut, how uncuth.

When will you speak little girl?

until you learn to cry?

Fortune cookies?
What a lie.

You can't breathe until you choke.
You gotta laugh when you're the joke?

It's nothing like a funeral.
Stop hiding from yourself.

The dead can no longer speak to you.
Yet you dread on memories.
You make me sick!

Fighting battle after battle?
You think you'll ever win?

The devil's got you beat.
Are you going to let him?

To make you feel alive,
Just open your eyes and see.

Don't you get it?

See that life is beautiful.

You're scared, I know.

You say,

"Do you swear that no one will cry at my funeral?"

Because you won't allow that burden.

Just let it go.

You say,

"I know some things that you don't!"

Stop it.

"You don't understand how I feel!"

Silence!

You followed your funeral
in a trail of blood
to find your way back home.

Home where you ask?

"I'm waiting for my hearse." You say.
"To carry me back to the land of forgotten sunlight."

Look beyond that, child.

What's come upon you?

Place your hands upon your chest.

Close your eyes.
Take a breath in and hold.

Do you feel it?
Is this the pain you feel?

Your silent? Speak up child!

Tell me what you see!
You cannot breathe, can you?

Hold it in and surely you will die.

That pain inside you you still bear?
Do you wish to continue holding your breath?

Suffocate child.

Your hearse still awaits til you decide.

Embrace

In the darkest hour
When loneliness threatens my soul
I feel your arms surround me
Taking me into your warmth

I feel your breath
It is warm and comforting
In your cocoon of strenth
I feel safe and content

Why you love me
For this, i have no answer
You have given me your heart
And i have given mine

What is left to say?
Words are never enough anyway
A simple touch says so much
A tear so much more

My life is yours
And as we face the future together
Always remember, at that first glance
My soul belongs to you

Solace

Deep with in my heart
There's a place that no one sees
For hope and plans and wondrous dreams
A solace just for me

Your name is written in my heart
In that place that no one knows
I dream of your eternal love there
Where no one else can go

I'll share with you my secret place
If you tell me that you care
I'll tell you all the hopes i hold
My dreams with you i'll share

Your love is all my heart desires
In that place no one sees
Come share my love share with me yours
And let my heart soar free

Deep within my heart
There's a place only you can see
Together in live and love we'll walk
A solace for you and me

When Friendship turns to love

How do you tell of friendship
That has now turned to love?

Of those moments spent together
So precious and yet so few

Minutes becoming seconds not long enough by half
So close together standing

Yet so far apart

Love set to bloom
Torn away as a fragile bud
Unless each will bend to he other
To hold, care, and love

The dreams of life together
A fulfillment of all desires,
Bring happiness contentment
Sharing all life holds

All this can truely happen when friendship turns to love

A glance, a smile, a brush of touch
A sound to linger in your heart
Interests held together
Possibilities of more to come

A hope to embrace, a dream to kiss
A desire for life to keep

Tears of joy and sorrow
Of ecstasy and pain
Of the gentleness of touch
Or the parting of the ways

For a moment or a year...

Seperation causing pain...

We…

We're both looking for something…
That we've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken…
It's easier to hide…

Looking at you,
holding my breath,
For once in my life,
I'm scared to death,

I'm taking a chance,
letting you inside…

The world that you see in me…
A faith… a destiny…

Falling again… on my knees…

Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you,
Holding my breath,
For once in my life
I'm scared to death,

I'm taking a chance,
Letting you inside.

You Whisper When I Slumber

The pain you held on to
So lifeless... So alone...
You lie here
In my invisible wings
To hold you when your torn.

I want to wrap you up thourghly...
My dearest...

To keep you safe from harm
I want to be the one...
That has the power to protect you
The one I love in both my arms.

Open your heart...

Let my wishes blow far into the wind
Fill your soul and flee
From all your troubles and worries...
I will take you to the place of freedom,
Where you can soar free.

Beyond the wind-torn clouds
In a sky overflowing with light
Always breathe in
And feel the smell of the wind
Lift up your arms...

Take flight...

Your heart, so fragile
So clear, so pure...
Tainted from bitterness and pain
Binded in the cruelity of your mind
It's left you gone insane...

This boundless blue world
These small fragile wings...

breathe deeply... gently...
So I can lift you up...
And take off into the sky.

To the future, a fresh tomorrow.

This is the key.

Open the door
any kind of door...
I'll always be at your side.

Run forth before the wind.
Don't be afraid...
The time to take off is comming.

Spread these invisible wings...

Now soar...

And be free...

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