Heh, I'm going to be gone longer, Not doing well, Mostly hiding in the stupid game Of WoW, Not taking things to well right now, even though some people are firends on here, I just cant bare to talk to anyone about life or anything right now. I am sorry, please forgive me, I just need time right now, how much, I don't know. No matter how horrible a person may be, losing my father, as one of those people to death at a early age, is not cool, and not good at all. ._.
We search and search for things in life that we don't have any names for. I look both ways befor I cross the street, and look whats infront of me, but never knowing that car comeing at top speed to slam right into me Killing me and shattering who and what I am to the fragments of hell itself. I wander this world thinking and seeking what? a no nammed thing is nothing yes? Then I must be seeking nothing? I swore I thought I knew what it was it had a name..had one. Who am I? I am a Funny sarcastic To kind son-of-a-bitch person who tells the truth to much and wishes for the greatest things in life that is never materialistic, and see the glass as half Full. I try to make life as it is, and try to find all the magical things in it, like the inadament love and desires of things that alot of people don't ever see, or the egolistic Ideals of useing nature as your one and only gift. Look at the world people. Gold...silver.....rings....jewlery....Items cards...nothing of it is ever true. Your greatest gift you can ever give people is the stars...the moon the plain veiw of nature and all of its intentions. Holy your hand out and reach the sky, and you can touch every star int he known universes, planets suns, anything, if you close your eyes and look. You people ask why I am defencive as all fuck and come off to be a ass. Fine, I will admit this to you all. I am afraid, yes I have fear every human does. Anyone that I let close......so close to me has ripped my heart out because of my kindness and generosity. every time I'm left shattered and to pick up my own peices, and people tell me to stop being me and kind and all these things. Why should I? You jsut didnt accept me for me and I was stupid to try to form myself into something you want. ._. once in my life, for 5 years....2 times a day I wished by throwing a quarter ina wishing well, for great things, for a change ._. and here I thouight I did see there could be a change and I opened one of my doors to some one, and they dissapered, and basicly shattered me into a million peices which has made me be a fucking asshole to others in this community, and I appologise. It was something inside I wanted and here, the fool of me, asked and got taken for granted and was in false happyness. How I wish I could turn the clock, but I cant turn it... Pain is life yes (unless your a Emo then you can jsut go fuck yourself) The greatest pain is heart ache... The greatest fear of anyone is being alone. You can promise the world to some one, and to them they say they want it, but do they honestly? Do you all honestly mean it? Can you give your world to some one, can you pay attention to them for them? And then give them what they truely deserve, which is happyness? I thought I did and Tried. I tried so hard and I thought I fucking finaly did it. Here is sit. I no longer have the shattered peices of my heart, because I gave them away and dont want it to stop fealing this pain, and to prevent anything from happening. Everyone....should look in themself,a nd ask, is anyone ever doing anything for me I was taught wrong? Taught that I dont deserve anything in this world I must do this this and that? Look inside and actuly ask yourself you can lie and live that lie forever? Pepole are bound for mistakes, but if ou can understand and actuly feel that? That is what you seek. If you choose to Defile yourself and let anyone fuck you over...then I feel sorry for you because you don't know what happyness is. You can call me ahypocrate or to shut the fuck up but at the same time I am right, and you want to live in your clouded mirror, I will cry spiritualy for you.... ._.
-Bows and Smiles warmly- Welcome one and all who tread in these waters of my own. My name is Chris, My Nickname in RL is Shadow/Addonexus (Addonexus being a Recent one couple been calling me over the phone, and my fellow religious followers, Latin for, Bringer of the Dead) , been for a while, there is a metaphorical purpose for it
Quote,
"I am a person who walks amongst you all, Ignored, a Cracked Illusion, Melded unto you all, able to weave between you all, For I am the Dark, I am your Shadow, Unnoticeable, Yet Noticeable.”
I am 23 years old (of course, because it says on my thing!!!! They needed my SSI Number to get it!!!!!!!
lol, Any who. I currently Live in South Dakota. but should be relocateing soon.
No, I am not “gothic” or “Goth” If you choose to label me as such, please read the following Gothic, was an Art period, Goth(s) where a Germanic Barbarian Tribe who was bent on conquering the world (but the world at the time was Europe XD. I am me and only me, I dress in all black and chains not to be labeled or stereotyped, it is who I feel am, and what I have *become*.
Yes my “relationship” status is Other or not shown. I have been screwed over and hurt alot yes? am I looking for a relationship? who isnt? but at the same time You just cant come up to me after 1 day and be like "I love you bemine" Instant boot. People need to learn what love is, its fromt he heart and soul never the mind.I know I loved and made my fair share of mistake of doing so, but I shall try to learna nd figure out the meanings of these things and why things got to go black at times.!
Who I am? –Laughs to self- Who I am I? I dont even know anymore. I guess I am what you judge me to be ._. Congradulations, your now promoted to a God, for Judgement.
What do I like to do, well… let’s start with the basics and then go to personal things? I like playing WoW (World Of Warcract) I play generally when I can, and when not I am chatting away with my friends online, who are my family, my personal made family. Now if you want to escalade everything? Fine by me I’m to open of a person. –sigh- What I love is nature, The night Sky, full of stars, laying there watching the stars and the moon, painting pictures in the sky, though I’m always alone doing it… I love making things for people who are special to me, or doing things for them, and I love planning then and doing it ^_^. I love buying things that have MEANING NOT MATERIALISTIC, and I love…..just love…..being with people, because being alone does suck ._. …..I love all the cheesy things in life, and I’m an idealistic, clingy, loving person…..heh.. Love anmials love to work with them ^___^. I also love Children, I love watching and giving and playing with them, they are the fucking future I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ._. I hope to have one some time as well ._. Yet, In case we are all wondering, Your Children are the fucking future, your fucking children, and I will just sit back and watch from now on, Why? Because your all fucking insects.
Now we come to the…Fun part of the Profile…Personal shit.
RELIGION!
Polytheistic Satanism. Satan isnt the main focus of reverence, but is seen as one of many gods. The gods of many non-Abrahamic cultures are believed to exist and are not seen as mere servants of either Satan or Jehovah. In many though not all forms of polytheistic Satanism, Satan Himself is seen as the Christian-era manifestation of some known ancient pre-Abrahamic god, such as Set, Pan, Prometheus, Shiva, Loki, or Enki. Polytheistic Satanism overlaps with pantheistic Satanism, insofar as some polytheists are also pantheists or otherwise embrace the idea that all the many gods are facets of an underlying One. But polytheistic Satanism also includes hard polytheists, who see the gods as distinct entities and not facets of the One or ANY ONE.
So Go A head, use Satanism as the word of the “Devil” Go to your own world then.
Anywho this is all just the Basic shit about me. If you want to know more, If I am on, and you wish to chat, Drop a line, if not….leave a message, and I will get back to you XD I warn you, though, before the chat will be estabilished know, I will tell you my mood if bad, so I don’t accidently bite of your head, and belive me, I don’t bite hard. Thank you, for stepping in my HP –bows lower and grins- Have a nice Day/Afternoon/Evening/Night.
Role Play Lore will addmore later sorry ._.
My name? I don't even remember, it was such a long time ago. I know what I am, I know who I am, but I don’t know my true and proper name. I have followed by the name given to me. My name is Shadow; my age is none of your concern at all. But if you must have a hint, I was before earth’s time. I am born from ancient Drake Blood, or to you, Dragon. I am, A Siethyuliuidrath. In the common tongue? I am a Shadow Dragon, hence my name, possibly. My family, whom I barely remembered, is all dead, of Ancient Kin. Sure, we still have Dragon kin around, but they are not Pure Blood as in I. They are what I call to be New Kin, Mixed blood, all of them cocky in there arrogance not knowing why the great God Draco put us here. Very few of my kind live, and I roam alone, only for myself. My own Honor, my own Justice. Call me common Rouge? You are wrong. I have my own morals, my own standards, my own, ways of life and see the ways of life through mortal Eyes. I mostly roam the world as one of a regular, if you wish to call it, formed as a Elvin Being in Dark Armor, wings folded around me making the perfect mimic of a cloak dragging with me. With me I carry 4 things. I have my Blade, in which I scouted the ends of the world for. I have my Magic, knowledge of Red, Black, and White, and Dragon, which I would just like to keep as Silver magic. I have my tong, which has won more battles than your or my blade tasting blood, or my spiritual essence flickering in the air. Last but not least, I have my knowledge of past times before even of yours, or your gods of this world. In the beginning you may have been here, but we came from another place and time, that is unspoken of. It was like the herding of sheep, our God and Lord Draco scooped us up and delivered us to where we were placed. Our home was called Rusfakh. Where it is I don’t even know. All I do now is wander in this planet like the desolate wasteland it is. I do what I think is right that this is it. I am who I am, and I am what I make of it.
Relationship Status: Single Orientation: Straight Looking For: Other
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