First thing people should know about me straight off is that I really am a flirt and tease. However I don't cyber. No if, ands, or buts about this. Any guy wanting to get to know me for that reason will be sorely disappointed. I've had men remove me from the friends list just because I wouldn't cyber with them. Many of them are attached to a significant other who would also feel the sting if I would go on with it. So, the sad truth is I know myself well enough to know the damage it will do to me when things end, and they usually do end fast. So if someone cannot believe I'm aware and sensitive enough to not want to hurt the others involved in such a thing, perhaps they can at least believe me to be more selfishly concerned about the pain I'd cause myself. Quite frankly if I ever did decide to go that far with someone, you can safely bet it will be with someone I trust because have known him for a very, very, VERY long time, not someone I just met. It would definitely not be with someone who jumps from cyber to cyber, or someone known to be in a relationship. While I'm on that subject, I have never slept or cybered with a married man that wasn't married to ME, and I don't intend to start now. Online or off.

The reason I am putting this little tidbit up here up front? I've lost what I thought were good and dear friends because such lies have been told and believed about me. I've recently discovered such rumors have hurt a very dear male friend of mine and damaged my relationship with him, as well as his standing with a couple of his ex's. I didn't start it and I can't fix it. I just hope whoever is spreading such things have realized they are hurting OTHER PEOPLE far more than they are hurting me. I really hope they can live with themselves for it. I know I wouldn't be able to live with myself for either spreading lies or actually doing what was said. I'm not terribly worried about what most people think of me as far as that goes, but I would hope that if someone is going to attack me or my character that they would have the decency they claim I don't have to just leave my friends alone and really focus on me. My friends don't deserve whatever fallout that might come of it.

Aright... as for the rest of me. I am a mother of a beautiful teen-aged boy. I home school him while I put myself though a certificate program in medical coding. I'm trying very hard to become more self sufficient so I don't have to rely on anyone else anymore. It will be a long hard road for me as I've never been on my own before. I just know I need to do this for myself, that I can do it.

I am pagan. Yes, you read that right. I have been a pagan for 20 years now. I do not push it on anyone else and frankly most people who know me have no clue I am pagan because I consider it a very private and personal path that I just don't talk about often. I don't teach it to my son (or anyone else for that matter) but he is able to read into it if he so chooses. I was reluctant to put this on my page because of the fearful and ignorant people that seem to have a crusade against anything that isn't exactly their way. However, to try to jam the rumor mill, I decided to pop it out there anyway. It isn't nearly as dark or dangerous as some seem to think. The fear generated around the idea of such things are far worse than anything I've ever encountered in either study or practice in all those years.

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Relationship Status: In a Relationship
Orientation: Straight
Looking For: Friendship